Blessing In The Breaking
September 19, 2023 - 6:40 pm
At the beginning of this year, I experienced a lot of heartbreak. Not just one kind of heartbreak. Heartbreak regarding work, school, friendships, and even a relationship. That is what the first 20+ pages of my journal consist of. The raw emotions I was feeling on a daily basis, the state of my mental health every day for months, and so much more. Once I started my blog I knew I wanted to write about these things but not for a while, but I have grown so much since the start of this year that I am so incredibly proud of myself for being so brave and strong.
Not a single person, book, or even movie can prepare someone for the pain of heartbreak. It is such a horrible feeling that I wouldn’t even wish it on anyone. The type of pain that comes from heartbreak, no matter the situation, is unlike any other pain that a human could experience. The pit in your stomach, the constant state of anxiety, the headaches from crying, and the feeling of pure mental and physical exhaustion all at once– are unlike anything I’ve ever experienced. But, this type of pain can come from many different forms of heartbreak. The split of a relationship, the letdown from a job interview, the growing apart phase of a friendship, it could be anything.
Those who are brokenhearted are broken in their personality. They are unable to function properly because of their wounds. They have been deeply hurt and are unable to move beyond their past pain.
I have experienced the pain of heartbreak plenty of times before this year, but what was different about this time around is that I have a close relationship with God. I swear on everything that I love that ever since I’ve grown closer to God, any and all battles that I’ve faced have been significantly easier to grow through.
God is the author of new beginnings, and whether we are wounded due to certain circumstances, our own sin, or because of the sin of others who have harmed us, we are the only ones who can decide whether to move on or stay parked.
During my time of heartbreak this year, I decided to take my life out of that parking spot that I was stuck in and started moving forward toward the great future that God has arranged for me. God never allows more to come onto us than we can handle, but best believe that if God is dealing with you about something, then it is the perfect time to let go of something old and take firm hold of the new way of living that He offers.
Going through such hard points in our lives makes us not want to face the reality of things, but He is with us every single step of the way. He is the one who strengthens us to grow through any hard points in our lives.
I believe wholeheartedly in there being a blessing in the breaking because anytime one goes through hardships, a painful path, you name it– learning things about yourself along the way through those periods of growth is what will be of great value to you in the future. Taking the painless path through life will never make us stronger, it is the difficult times that do.
Just know that you are not alone, I am here for you, and God is always with you.
xo