God Is Right In Front of You
September 3, 2023 - 8:38 pm
If you were wondering if I’m still journaling in my little orange journal, I am. In the past, I was always one to get a fresh new journal and commit to writing in the entire thing, cover to cover, but I either forgot about it or wasn’t motivated enough to keep writing. There is something about my little orange journal that keeps me reaching for it every single day. I carry her with me wherever I go. I’ve been a tote bag girl these past few months so I have had the little orange journal attached to me daily.
Earlier today I had some free time on my hands so I decided to open my journal up and read it from the start. I’m not going to lie, it was hard to read certain entries. I have poured out my heart into this journal so far and I wish I could go back to the Marissa many months ago and let her know that everything was going to be okay and that those hard moments would pass.
I was doing some comparison with the first journal entry to my most recent journal entry. I noticed that throughout the journal thus far I was always wanting more, more happiness, more life, more days in my week where I could feel happy and excited about my life. I was always exhausted, drained, and unable to find joy. I truly didn’t recognize myself one bit. But as I was re-reading entries and trying to figure out what switched to lead me to where I am today– which is happy, calm, and excited for my future.
The one thing that I noticed was that the Lord was right in front of me the entire time. Each and every time I would write in my journal feeling empty, lost, and sad. He was right there in front of me while I was too busy focusing on the negatives of my life at the time. Like I’ve said before and I’ll preach it until the day I die– Jesus wants our full attention, the entirety of our hearts, and to lean on Him to gain a sense of clarity, peace, and overall comfort within ourselves.
During those times of feeling defeated, confused, upset, you name it, I was not fully focused on Him. I felt unsupported by God when in reality, my heart and my eyes were turning away from Him.
He wants full hearts. His arms are open for you. He wants to hear from you just as much as you want to hear from Him.
For the eyes of the LORD range throughout the earth to strengthen those whose hearts are fully committed to him.
2 Corinthians 16:9
If you are searching for something more in life, wondering why you’re feeling the way you’re feeling, turn to God and open your heart to Him. I promise that He is with you and He has a plan for you.
xo